To the last one

As they say being someone’s first love is amazing, but to be their last is amazing.  Absolutely, I don’t have this idea that marriage and a long lasting relationship will be like a Disney Movie.  But I know I still believe in it and that it takes a lot of hard work to stay together like our parent’s generation.

I don’t know who I’ll end up with and I guess that’s part of the adventure of life. When I will meet you, I hope you know that I’m going to be brutally honest and I’ll be very hard to get.  I’ve had my share of relationships and a now I’ve become a little jaded.

I won’t open my heart to you immediately, it’s been broken once too many times.  I am not going to integrate you into my life, invite you to events, and introduce you to my friends until things are serious.

I hope we last, but for all the ones that haven’t, I don’t want good memories tainted with remnants of our relationship, I don’t want to have to delete photos of me because you are in it, and I certainly don’t want you to have the opportunity to keep ties with my friends when we end.

I will hesitate to say yes to every date.  I will hesitate to trust a word you say including the fact that you say you love me.  I’ll question everything and I can promise I’ll be a pain in the ass.

It’s nothing against you, it’s just because I’m completely afraid of being hurt again, but I absolutely still believe in it.  You will have to work and prove to me I can trust you with your actions, not your words.  Words are meaningless to me, it’s how you treat me.

I won’t be easy to catch, as one date said, I’m like a butterfly.  But once you do and I choose to commit, I am the best partner in the world.  I am extremely loving, caring and loyal to a fault. I will make every day exciting, fun, and full of adventure. I will budget our finances so we never worry about money, but enjoy life to its fullest.

I am that girl who will have a nice meal ready for you when you come home, but at the same time I have my own career, hobbies, and life.  I can make friends with anyone and I truly will be that person who cares about your family.  You can take me to any event and I’ll be the life of the party.

See you at a later date (TBD).